Thursday, June 6, 2013

Love letter for you..



Dear Man,

1. What I need is a man not a boy who think he can.
2. I think I'm too much caring about you but you ignoring me.
3. Actually I know What you did But you think I don't know.. It's called women instincts. So you better honest, because I already know the truth when I ask you the question.
4. Women's heart is really fragile, when its broken it will become too strong to knock in.
5. Its just a simple love and caring.
6. I know when you just not into me but some how I just ignore it because I believe if I give a try you might consider it. How stupid I am.
7. Please don't come to me when I'm happy with my partner. 
8. I really hate of ignorance, please be honest because I can handle it.
9. Sometimes I feel I'm your second option, and its really hurt me.

I know sometimes you think I'm not serious, but I do hope one day you know how much you meant to me, and hopefully I will meet a man who appreciate me just the  way I am. 

Love is Blind, and the Blind is you
Yan Ismail

P/S: Please Don't keep me waiting because you know I will... Both of us know our relationship is really complicated because you make it so. 


Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Officially a Master Graduate!!


My runaway stage after 2 years hardwork.

Alhamdulillah, after 2 years full of hardwork, tears, sweat, fun, backstab, loves, crushes, joy, frienemy(friend+enemy)..officially I'm a Master graduate!!! Thanks Allah for the greatest gift.. I never imagine I will finish my master at the age of 25!!! Muda sangat ni.... Enjoy the pic of of my graduation day.. 

Happy BIG family.

My parent with their Double trouble.

Thanks to my family for the loves, never ending support, financial of course, my number 1 fans, my soul, my everything.. My parent is the only human on earth who understand me, they never judge me, they know how stubborn I am, they really know when I upset, when I'm happy and of course when I need money... Thanks for everything and for always support what I'm doing and also always proud of me as your daughter, I love all of you very much.. 

My loves bff tagaya and glamm mama adrin... (And also my awesome sis huda)

Not forget to my bff azaria tagaya, glamm mama adrin and my sayang huda, thanks for your support, life experience, time, space ( especially for adriana and family for their kindness giving us a space to do our assignment and treat me as a part of the family, thank you very much) ... Well said, we have face a lot of things, from backstabbers, 24 hours not sleep becuse of assignment, facing the frienemy of course, our awesome krabi patty trips, and all the joy, fun, tears working together as one team.. I never imagine,I've found someone special who loves me just the way I am during my journey as a master student.. I love all of you very much.. 


Its not too late, to have a dream and make it reality, we have so many talents that we not realise until we facing some challenge or problem.. I thought, I only get a scroll of master but I've gain something more precious which are life experiences and lovely friends.. Its make you stronger, you know what you want in your life, you become more careful, do not easily trust anybody and the most important is you have to believe that you can do it and be positive.

Never let anybody control your life because its your journey so you are the one who control your life.

XOXO
Yan Ismail


Monday, June 3, 2013

Bila nak kahwin??



Soalan yang paling popular untuk anak dara sepertiku .. Bila Nak Kahwin?? Kadang- kadang terlintas di fikiran aku menjawab pertanyaan makcik busy body dengan soalan yang sangat sensitif ..makcik ni bila nak pergi Haji?? Terasa kepedasan di situ, tapi aku bukan anak dara kurang ajar kebiadapannya.

Aku selalu memberitahu mamaku jangan tanya soalan Bila Nak kahwin kepada rakanku, terlalu sensitif, sama sensitif dengan soalan utk pasangan yg 10 tahun kahwin tapi belum ada rezeki mempunyai zuriat sendiri atau sudah berumur 50 tapi belum pergi haji lagi. 

Mungkin belum sampai jodoh kami untuk berkahwin, siapa yang tak nak kahwin..tapi bila menjawab belum sampai jodoh, ada saja kata- kata..tak berusaha macam mana nak dapat... Minta maaf aku bukan jenis perigi cari timba...aku bukan jenis perempuan yg mula melamar lelaki, itu bukan style aku.

Mungkin aku bersahabat dengan yg lebih berusia, dan aku melihat mereka tidak pernah kesunyian, enjoy with their life, ada sahaja aktiviti yg menarik... Melihat tiada masalah untuk enjoy tanpa pasangan membuatkanku rasa belum masanya untuk ada komitment atau serious terhadap sebuah perhubungan.

Munkin mama dan ayah tidak pernah bersuara atau risau bila aku mahu kahwin?? Sampaikan ayahku lupa yg umur anak daranya sudah 25 tahun, ayah selalu menanggapku masih bawah umur!!

Mungkin juga hatiku sudah terpaut dengan si dia, jadi susah untuk kuterima lelaki lain..walaupun hubungan kami tersangat complicated, tapi kerana cara si dia melayanku membuatkanku selalu membandingkan si dia dengan lelaki lain ( tidak dinyatakan nama disini sebab si dia stalker blogku) 

Terlampau banyak sangat kemungkinan kenapa jodohku agak lambat... Mungkin aku masih penganggur jadi aku belum kenal dunia ... 

Mungkin aku happy dengan duniaku sendiri, aku punya keluarga kecil yg sangat mencintaiku.. Aku punya kehidupan yg mungkin segelintir di luar sana mahu sepertiku, aku tiada masalah utk difikirkan, aku tidak sempurna tetapi aku ada cinta yg sempurna dari keluargaku ..itu yg lebih penting. 

Konklusinya tidak perlu risau bila aku mahu kahwin?? Kerana jodoh itu rahsia Allah... Aku tidak tahu apa kisahku seterusnya kerana itu semua rahsia Allah, mungkin bukan masanya untuk aku ada keluarga kerana Allah tahu aku belum bersedia untuk perhubungan yg lebih serious... 

Doakan aku

Izyan Ismail

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Tips menghadapi Pembuli di sekolah asrama penuh

Seperti yang sedia maklum, saya pernah bersekolah di sekolah paling prestige di Johor selepas sekolah Tun Fatimah iaitu Sekolah Menengah Sains Muar (SAMURA). Ibu Bapa perlu tahu, walaupun anak anda bersekolah di SBP, anak anda tidak terkecuali menjadi mangsa buli. Walaupun, pelajar SBP dikategorikan sebagai pelajar pintar , tetapi bab membuli juga sangat kreatif.

Cerita bermula pada minggu orientasi, bila senior form 5 tahu yang saya dari sekolah menengah kebangsaan Agama Johor Bahru (SMKAJB). Untuk pengetahuan anda SAMURA cuma ada 2 peringkat Form 4 dan Form 5, so tersangat besar peluang untuk membuli. Pada mulanya saya amat pelik kenapa saya menjadi mangsa buli, rupanya ada kawan beritahu senior form 5 tak puas hati dengan senior mereka dulu which is from my school (SMKAJB) so ini kira revenge la..tapi silap besar sebab mereka revenge kat orang lain..ini Izyan Ismail, awak bermain dengan api, tapi saya hampir tewas selepas 2weeks sekolah saya minta mama pindahkan saya ke sekolah lama sebab tak tahan, tapi mama pujuk...baiklah I face the challenge.

Kes 1
Saya diminta oleh senior kadet polis untuk mengambil sign dari beberapa senior lain, macam biasa kerja senior memang nak membuli junior, so what happen is i've to get sign from abg senior yg popular but I forget his name!!! So bila saya selamba jer minta sign "abg nak sign, kakak fulanah binti fulan mintak sign" ...abg senior tu pon okey jer...rupanya mintak sign dengan abg senior lagi senang dari kakak senior..

Kes 2
Kakak senior tak puas hati sebab saya dapat sign dengan senang, apa jadi senior ni nama Adillah dari Sarjana 7, dia ni cantik pandai, tak tahulah jadi apa sekarang mungkin doctor, engineer, so dia panggil saya suruh taekwando kat dalam dorm dia, you must be crazy woman!!..saya pon taekwando, mereka ketawa dengan senang hati, what happen is saya cakap ada sesiapa nak sparring ( lawan one by one) mereka senyap terus suruh saya balik.

Kes 3
Senior sarjana 7 cakap saya degil so kepala ada batu lah, mereka dah prepare one song for me ..the song's name is "kapla" so setiap kali nampak saya mereka akan nyanyi lagu kapla..seronok tengok mereka nyanyi..what i did is bila mereka nyanyi, i jerit to my friends " korang nak dengar tak dayang2 aku nyanyi lagu untuk aku" my friends aka my classmate ni tahu so diorang pon cakap lah "nak!!!" Terus senyap kakak senior.

Kes 4
Paling tak best bila kena ludah dengan senior, nasib baik tak kena kat badan kalau tak memang ada makan taekwando side kick aku nanti...boleh ke tengah jalan nak pergi toilet, senior sarjana 7 dah siap prepare berdiri tepi pintu nak meludah, nasib baik aku lupa muka korang cuma aku ingat Adilah je lah... Kalau tak memang aku cari semua ....

Kes 5
Masa tunggu waktu maghrib saya tertido kat surau, tetiba ada senior sarjana 5 baling sejadah on my face suruh i bangun, aku tengok kakak tu aku cari nama dia siapa, tinggal kat mana parent kerja apa, bila aku tahu yang dia tinggal kat flat quarters kenanga kat JB ni, aku terus jumpa dia haruslah one to one. Saya cakap " kakak, saya tahu ayah akak kerja apa, saya tahu semuanya pasal akak, jangan sampai ayah akak hilang kerja sebab akak buli saya" ... Fine, terus dia stop buli aku

Kes 6
Still kakak sarjana 7 , diorang ni sebelah dorm aku, so haruslah diorang memang sakit hati jer dengan aku, sebab aku tak pernah menangis depan diorang, anyway what happen is diorang tengah menyanyi lagu kapla sebab nampak aku. Nak jadikan cerita, calculator diorang terjatuh dari tingkat 3 sampai ke bawah tangga tingkat 1... Aku terus jerit "itulan padahnya menzalimi orang"

Kes 7
Tradisi SBP akan minta maaf bila nak dekat SPM, bila tiba turn Sarjana 7, mereka minta maaf dengan aku ... Aku salam aku cakap "dosa akak semua dengan saya hanya Allah yg balas" meraung kakak senior sebab aku cakap macam tu, akhir cerita batch 21 SAMURA terus jatuh pointer SPM dengan sangat teruk!!only 3 students get straight A's... Dah ramai sangat junior korang buli and dah banyak air mata memohon kepada Allah minta pembalasan.

Anyway kita terus pergi tips menghadapi pembuli
1. Tenangkan diri, fikir apa yang perlu anda lakukakan
2. Research kenapa anda jadi mangsa buli
3. Bertindak secara profesional, sila mengadu kepada parents, warden, guru..ASAP
4. Kalau rasa tak tahu nak buat apa sila pura2 pengsan, confirm Insya Allah, senior terus ternganga cuak!!! be the best drama queen!!
5. Mengadu kat kawan2 yg betul kawan bukan jenis bodek senior
6. Kalau anda rasa anda baik dengan senior, sila mengadu dengan mereka, mungkin mereka boleh tolong nasihatkan kawan2 mereka... In my case, i dah mengadu kat my senior dorm, what happen is they ask me to be patient!!memang sakit hati kau suruh aku sabar,bukannya kau nak bela aku kan...
7. Anda tahu anda berdepan dengan siapa, siapa pembuli anda, kenapa dia buli anda, dan confront dia secara privasi... One to one.
8. kepada pelajar lelaki,terus je report kat warden tak payah nak tunjuk hero sangat, or report kat parents, your parents will know what to do.
9. Tak tahulah zaman sekarang pelajar sekolah buli macam mana dah 7 tahun tinggalkan sekolah...jangan pindah sekolah!!awak akan rugi kalau pindah sekolah..
10. Jangan jadi pembuli, bila awak dah jadi senior!!!

So inilah tips menghadapi pembuli di SBP, kalau sekolah lain saya tak tahu sebab sekolah harian biasa lagi teruk kes buli, by the way Be strong!!! By the end you must know, the best revenge is to get flying colours, cari kerja paling best, or business... If you are "somebody" bolehlah cari senior korang.."hello kak, ingat saya?? Dulu yang akak nyanyi lagu kapla and ludah kat saya!!"

XOXO
Izyan Ismail
Pelajar SAMURA batch 22 SPM2005 Pujangga 7



Sunday, February 24, 2013

Lover or bestfriend??

This entry is written with sincerely from the bottom of my half broken heart...yet not fully damage.. It's not about one man and one woman... This related with girls bestfriend forever.. Yup, BFF katanya... Anyway i just don't know how to start..so many hearts to care...

Okey maybe will start with me.. When i've boyfrien i never abondoned my friends...in fact l love make them (boyfriend and friends) meet together.. Like makan2 lepak2 and so many... My ex pon dulu kenal all my friends.. But for the first time he really don't like to hang out with my friends...privacy katanya...but i said to him, my life is not all about you i've friends who will take care of me if you are not around..so please do be friend with my friend or just make them like you...that is my principe...maybe some might said it's too much kan...but for me macam .... if i break dengan you and i xada kawan sebab masa i bercinta dengan you i lupakan kawan2 i yg i dah lama kenal ... My mum always said if you maried you still need your friends to support you or sharing experience ... Yup in Islam if you married, the women must take care her relationship towards Allah, Rasul, Husband and yourself...even your parents cannot masuk campur in your marriage kan.... But be realistic woman, some part in your life you do need your girlfriend to gain support and sharing your experience... Okey la just simple example like breastfeeding..your husband don't know how hard or painful it is when the first time you breast feed your baby kan... You do need support from your girlfriend and how to solve the problem regarding this breastfeeding issue... Even my mum once a week my dad give permission to let her having minum2 with her friend.... Plus, my friends also introduce me with thier boyfriend and we also lepak2 together... Maybe i live with the surrounding like that ..just let me introduce you my boyfriend so we can hang out together , nanti bila kahwin tak adalah segan nak datang rumah kau kan... Just simple like that.. For me a real man would not worry or jealous with your girl because you know how much your girl in love with you...so man please jangan nak jealous sangat unless you feel insecure towards your girl....

The heart broken part is, when your bff macam abondoned you sebab dia dah ada boyfriend baru...hahahah i know it just like remeh temeh kan, but some how it's really make me sad because you are my bff and why you behave like that?? Yup, you have said to me that nanti kahwin you have to obey with your husband...but i'm your bff though, what i need is just like we having lepak2 together but not like dulu2 when you single... I understand you have boyfriend u want to have date with him in every single free time you have... Maybe some people would said that i'm jealous with bff...is a big NO!! I'm happy with her in fact i cannot wait to be her bridesmaid and help her planning in her wedding.... Okey i don't want to make assumption that u'r boyfriend dont like me...but being human sometimes terfikir jugak kan... Anyway to my bff i'm still u'r bestfriend forever, i'm happy if your happy if you need help or support i'm yours ....

Love and hugs
Izyan Ismail



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